an early morning goodbye has me back at my keyboard

so here's the thing...

i need to write this down, and usually when i get the urge to do that i'll write in my own blog, but i know that i'm going to need prayers for the things that i need to write about, so i want to put this in our shared space. i'm not big on editing what i write, so i'm sorry if some of it is garbled.

so this weekend i took of with john grogg to fresno to meet his best friend micah and micah's wife erica and john's mom. it was so so so much fun. we went to yosemite with micah and erica and climbed up to the lower falls and took pictures of wolves and laughed a lot. we spent sunday evening with john's mom who is a nurse at a free clinic in jos, nigeria. she flew back to the states to be with john's sister while she had her second daughter. it was really awesome to meet her and talk to her about the work she's doing.

so, after all of that, i have a couple of things that are weighing on my heart:

i really want to get married. and i am acutely aware of the rashness of that statement. but i do. and i want to do it sooner rather than later. and that terrifies me a little.

i want to go to africa and work with children affected by the aids epidemic. and i can't figure out whether this is just the after-effects of being with john's mom or something real.

that aside, kelly is--well, was--my bathroommate. so i have been really close to the events unfolding over the last week. and i've really struggled with not being selfish about the situation because i know that this is the best thing for her. but, all told, i will really miss her and i'm scared for hamlet. and there's absolutely nothing i can do for that whole situation.

so i need your prayers. and, if you see me, i always need hugs.

i love you all.

play music. eat chocolate. serve God.
~kala